There's something to be said for uncertainty. Now, I'm not sure what exactly that is, but there is something to be said about it. Let me explain...

I'm sure everyone knows about the accident and I'm sure everyone knows how pissed (rightfully so) I am about it. But that, coupled with the sheer amount of stress/pressure I'm getting from work and school is about to make my head explode.

For the first time in my life, (well maybe the second, i dont remember) I'm totally and completely uncertain about how my future is going to unfold. I don't like this, I don't like it one bit.

For starters, my relationship with Sarah is being stressed beyond belief and I have no idea how that will take its toll on either of us. Then we have my school/class stuff, I'm sure i'll do fine but the future of my progress towards my degree is still relatively uncertain as well. I don't know what i'm going to do for work next semester as my temporary status at my current job will be cut short. And as far as my car is concerned I have no idea how I plan to get everything back into swing when the god damned rental company is dicking me around.

-- The rental company is giving me a hard time to find a car and they keep trying to stick me with piles of shit. I think it's due to my age but they say that has nothing to do with anything. I told them over and over again that I do not want a truck or a van with the current price of gas. I'm sorry, I'm not paying 80$ to go 300km in a GM Sierra nor am I driving around a windstar. They have two perfectly good (albeit newer) cars in their lot and they are apparently 'on hold'. Bullshit I say. Ageism, thats all it is. Of course they have no problem renting me any of the cars due to the fact that i'm 19 but they sure as hell seem to want to limit my choices.

Oh, I'm not depressed or anything. Just frustrated with my current financial situation as it is right now. It's terribly annoying.

Lastly the one thing that I think I'm most disappointed about... I can't justify using the money i saved up for the box of ravnica. So my gaming expensive for the month has been funneled into my car expense. Although it all really depends on how much I get for my car. Here's hoping I get the high end of the black book value.

"I am want for nothing, but long for everything."
- flung by tehmonkey at 10/05/2005 10:22:00 AM